It's early Saturday morning and the sound of a good, soaking rain can be heard out my studio window. I'm already on to my second cup of coffee and my head is swimming with the things I want to do versus the things I should do...already the struggle with which tug will be stronger has begun.
There was a time not so long ago when there was no struggle. There was only taking care of what
needed to be done one day, one moment at a time. There was no creative spark crying out for me to play hooky to the needs of my small world. Simply let's get up, put one foot in front of the other and survive until tomorrow when we will struggle to do it all again.
As I type these words I am already wondering...hesitating...as to whether or not to push the publish button. You see, while I love pretty things and I want to bring beauty and loveliness into my every day life, those times of darkness in my life (in our lives) are certainly real but we have been taught not to admit it, to smile and pretend everything is okay.
The why's of my struggles are personal but the fact that they exist and can seem to choke the very joy out of what should be a beautiful, fruitful life are common to us all. It can be so easy to get caught up in this cyber social world and see only what appears to be and wonder why you are missing out?
What I couldn't have shared a couple of months ago is that there is hope and light on the other side. I wish there was a simple step by step tutorial on how to get from point A to point B as quickly as possible but I didn't find one.
What I did find was there is healing and hope in prayer, there is promise and provision in His Word and there is Light at the end of any tunnel. Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you look at it) patience and perseverance will be required along the way. That plus a whole lot of faith...
It's good to be back...