When I left the work force nearly four years ago, after working outside the home for nearly 30 years and dreaming of being a stay at home mom, I had a good idea of how I wanted to live my life. But then reality set in, life happened, time passed and before I knew it my life had little resemblance to the one I had intended on pursuing all those years ago.
Part of that was life throwing me curve balls that I had no control over, but another part of it was me
giving up and giving in when things got a little difficult. I don't think it was a conscience decision but rather one that I gave way to bit by bit, not realizing the ground that I was losing.
And then a couple of months ago I had one of those light bulb moments that woke me up to what was happening and I made the decision to fight hard for those things I love and esteem and I set about (in my typical type A personality fashion) righting the ship, one project at a time.
Has life fully cooperated with my carefully crafted list? Of course not, but my resolve to be purposeful in how I spend my time (in as much as I can control it) has stayed firm.
A lot of my time has been spent fluffing my nest and bit by bit it is becoming a place I truly love to be. Is life perfect? No, not hardly but I'm finding that pursuing the things that make me happy adds joy to those otherwise not so perfect things in life.
And so it has been a good and productive month around here on Lemon Lane. I have finished quite a few things that have been hanging out on my to do list for a long time (what's scary are the amount of things still left on the list, but that's another story) and I feel more content with my life than I have in a very long time.
And one of the best parts is feeling genuinely excited to share it all with you. It feels good to be living among the dreamers again.