If you receive my newsletter (and open it up, lol) you read my words on "something's got to give". The last couple of weeks I have been feeling a bit overwhelmed by lots of individual things but mostly by life in general. I am feeling like I have lost the joy in life's everyday beauty...like I've lost me. So I knew it was time to slow down and regroup, which is what I'm doing right now.
I don't know how that looks for you but I thought I'd try and share what it looks like for me.
It always starts with simplifying. I started by making a list (no surprise there, right?) of everything that has happened to me in the last couple of months that has me in this state of mind. Things like my beloved dog Bear dying, my daughter and grand boys moving out, several unfinished projects around the house and blogging full time, along with general everyday life responsibilities.
Once it was all written down I could see why I was feeling so frazzled. That is a whole lot of life happening and there's no wonder I feel overwhelmed by it all. So now, what do I do to restore order and my natural love of life? What do I have some say in and what is out of my control?
Obviously, grief is out of my control. The loss I feel over my dear sweet 11 year old pup is more profound than even I imagined it would be, in fact there are fresh tears welling up in my eyes as I type this. The bittersweet reality of my grandsons moving out, sadness in the end of a season but joy in starting a new chapter in my life, is a real struggle. I have no control over these two, they will just take time to come to emotional terms with, they must naturally run their course.
Unfinished projects and blogging full time I do control. Unfinished projects is easy, I just made a list of what needs to be done and will finish up one project completely and move on to the next without putting pressure on myself to finish them by a deadline. Which leads to blogging full time...
Simply put, it's not for me. It takes more time (think 40 + hours a week) than I am willing or wanting to give, to do it well. I have so much admiration for those of you who do it successfully. But the price was just too high for me and my family. I love all the things I was writing about but in doing it six times a week I was losing me, I was losing my true identity. As a wise friend told me, I was becoming someone else's vision of my authentic self. In short, I didn't like me very much.
So you will notice a few tweaks here and there in the look and feel around here. There will be no schedule, no rhyme or reason and no specific niche. (Oh, how I've come to hate that word.) I am who I am and I like me better when I share from the heart whatever is going on, whether we are just chatting about life or talking specifically about decor, gardening, fashion or faith.
I will still be on instagram and facebook plus I've added back my follow widgets and blogs I love to my sidebar. My subscribe button is still there but I have changed the settings to go out once a week instead of daily so I won't overwhelm your inbox if you choose to subscribe that way. I may still pass on sources or sales on my side bar that I have personally selected if I think you will like or benefit from them, just like I'd text or call a real life girlfriend.
It will be so nice not to be scrutinizing numbers and analyzing data. If you want to unsubscribe or unfollow I am okay with that. I hope you won't because I will genuinely miss you, but I get that your time is valuable and you need to be selective in how and who you spend it with.
And please comment, even if it's just a word or two. I am a relational girl and that let's me know we are in this together. If you are a "no comment blogger" I may not be able to respond but I will try to be better at it.
So if you are still with me this morning, welcome to Life on Lemon Lane. I can't wait to spend time with you.
Here's the link to more visiting in the let's chat series of posts.