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July 23, 2016

FINDING YOURSELF - let's chat

Good morning my friends.  It's hard to believe that it's only been a week since we last visited but it has.  So much has happened to me internally and I have been looking forward to this post all week but now suddenly I am staring at a blank screen wondering where in the world to start.  Don't worry, I won't start at the beginning, ha, ha!


If you've been following me on facebook or instagram (it's just easiest share bite size nuggets on
those two platforms right now) you already know a lot of what I'm going to share today but since this blog will always be my first social media love, I wanted to share here as well.


When we last met I was contemplating the meaning of life...well not quite all of existence but at the very least the meaning of my current life situation.

I am trusting human nature runs true with all of us and that you find yourselves at that crossroad from time to time, as well.  Sometimes there will be major life events that propel us there and other times it can just be a gradual build up of junk and we wake up one morning wondering what happened to us...the real, authentic person that we know we were created to be.


For me it was a combination of the two this time, while the feeling has been stirring for a while now, the catalyst came last week as I was cleaning out my craft studio to make way for a dressing room and office area.  As I was removing my paints and artist paper from my little student desk to make room for my make up and magnified, lighted mirror, it hit me how far I had strayed from the creative being that I was meant to be.  Now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with  having a designated makeup area if that is where your heart is, but deep down in my very soul I knew that while I enjoy make up and clothes, my heart beats fastest when my fingers are covered in art paints and not foundation.


You see, we were all created to be different, (there is nothing revolutionary in that fact) I think what happened to me was that I let those little squares of social media influence me more than I should have.  I fell into the comparison trap and buckled up for a bumpy ride.  It's not that I was espousing things that were not true...I still think presenting your best self is important and I still think getting dressed in cute clothes is fun and there is room and and even a necessity for having many interests, but I let a side interest become my main focus.  I got distracted from being who I was created to be.


Because my faith is at the core of who I am, I always turn to the Word of God to get my bearings.  So this week has been filled with much soul searching and time just sitting still.  As usual while I sat my mind came up with a number of new projects and ideas but now is not the time for me to act, now is the time for me to sit and wait and refresh and fill up and prepare and I know when the time is right, to move forward with the next chapter of my creatively inspired life.  God has been faithful in a big way to meet me in the stillness and to disperse his loving words as a salve to my weary and hungry soul and the joy in life is returning full force.


Thanks for joining me here today.  My hope is to be back next Saturday to share a bit more, maybe even add a decorating post or two along the way because amongst the quiet times are times of painting, sewing and rearranging, too.  I have to be honest, no pressure or deadlines is feeling pretty good right now.

How was your week?

xo, Patty

11 comments:

  1. I have always been inspired by your projects and art work. I look forward to your next creation.

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  2. Patty, I understand your meaning here. I feel as if I have lived many life times...doing different "things". If you have creativity in your soul, stay with it when you can have some time. Teach it to your grands when you can. I know the newer generations can "look it up on line" ...how to do or make anything. But being taught by family is so good. Even if you show us what you are making or creating. ...you are passing on knowledge. Blessings, xoxo, Susie

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  3. It's good to reflect on life. I've been doing some of that myself; I just haven't found the answers yet. Good Luck to you, Patty!

    Karen

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  4. Interesting perspective. I truly understand the comment about being led astray from what you really are interested in. It has happened to me more than once in my life time and right now I'm wavering about changing up things again. Thanks for sharing.

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  5. Patty,
    It is a good thing to sit still and listen for God's voice, His direction for our lives!
    Many time, I have asked of Him and gotten "The Wait". Those are not my favorite, but I have learned more often than not, He has something better in store for me.
    Take time to allow yourself the ability to re~connect with the "inner you", dear friend!
    I'm certain you're on the right path!
    Fondly,
    Pat

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  6. I'm a Christian too. Sometimes social media takes the place of time spent studying God's word, but I try every day to spend time reading his word. Blessings on you.

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  7. I hope you have a beautiful and happy day and I look forward to reading your upcoming posts :)

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  8. I like your new name! I've always thought of your blog as more of a "lifestyle" or "your life" kind of blog. Each thing you presented, I figured was a part of who you are. For awhile it was some crafting, then it was decorating, then some thoughtful and wise words, then the style challenge, and some craft items in between! I really enjoyed it that way... a little bit of this and a little bit of that, which make up who you are. I never felt that you should do just one thing! I like the mix of "you"... so am looking forward to it continuing.. the way it used to be! I think MY core is also the creativeness... I always have things running around in my mind to make, whether it is with fabric, or paper, or wood or in the garden. It's all art and being creative. Your decorating, fashion and crafts are YOUR creativeness and I like all of it. We are made up of so many different layers. I don't "do" instagram or other social medias as I know it would take up too much of my time. I also waver between even having a blog and Etsy shop! sometimes it puts pressure on me.. but I try not to let the pressure invade my life and I post and add things to Etsy as the feeling arises. I'm looking forward to more of you and our life on Lemon Lane! Hugs. Marilyn

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  9. I relate so much to your struggles and searching Patty. The worst thing about social media is the pressure we let it put on us to "keep up" with everything we see going on. At least it is for me! I start looking at what others are doing and lose track of my goals. I push aside what I want to do and who I am to be something else. I had gotten into such a rut that I had a hard time letting go of some things this summer and just "being". Like you, when I give myself space the ideas come flooding in, and it felt like I hadn't had that dreaming space for a long time. It has taken a long time and a lot of searching to come to the realization that I actually needed to back away from social media a bit and just live for a while I found my true passions again. I am praying that you find all that makes you happy and your most authentic and creative self! Thanks for sharing :)

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  10. Looking forward to seeing your creations ♥

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  11. I, like you, would not feel whole if I were not creating. It is who I am. I. Must. Make. You have learned a lot of valuable things about yourself lately Patty. It shows in the way you write.
    Much Love,
    Kris

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