I had one of those restless nights where you find yourself wide awake at 1:00 in the morning with the weight of the world on your mind and no chance of falling back to sleep. You know, the kind where you debate whether or not to just get up or lay in bed for 30 more minutes willing yourself to slumber.
I hate those nights. I'm fortunate not to have them very often but when I do they are doozies. I wish I
could pin point exactly what it was that had me so preoccupied. I am a worrier by nature and yes, I do have faith in God and I am getting so much better at giving those worries over to him, but sometimes it is more difficult than others...especially in the middle of the night.
I started listing those things in my life that might be causing my sleeplessness, those things robbing me of my peace. Family matters (nothing new there), money concerns, the smallness of my life and my contribution to the world, nothing major. Ha! Ha!
Then I started thinking about this blog and it's content. I have a passion to write, to make a difference, to encourage others, is fashion really the way to go? I mean it's so first world, but so are decor and flower gardening and DIY and crafting and all of those pretty things that I enjoy doing.
Then that Still Small Voice reminded me that it's not the vehicle I use, but the words I share. This blog is just the platform for my words, my thoughts, and my encouragement to those who choose to stop by each day.
As much as I hate sleepless nights, I love it when I listen to the tender words whispered in my ear, calming words meant to assure me that I am not in charge, that I am just a link in the chain to Him, that I don't have to have all the answers or solve all the problems.
Those words are not just for me, they are for you, too. Feeling small is okay, because we are. There is only One who is large. We just have to be obedient, kind, patient and loving to those He places on our path. We are not supposed to be equipped to do this on are own, that's why we can't. We are supposed to have to call on the strength and wisdom that only He can provide.
And I just need to make sure that what I write is from the heart, and no matter what pictures I share, those words will touch someone at just the right time.
I pray that someone is you.