I want to be able to be very honest with you here on my blog and sometimes that is not always going to cause the best reflection on me but if I can't be real here then I might as well just stop writing.
I went to bed really early last night because I was tired for sure but also because my heart was heavy. Did you know that you can have a heavy heart over a good thing, even something that is an answer to years of prayer? You can.
If you have visited here for a while you probably know that my daughter and my six year old grandson lived with us from the time he was born until he was five years old. For those of you who have had grandchildren live with you, you know that causes a special and unique bond between the grandparents and grandchild.
Yesterday after his baseball game my grandson was given the option of going home with me and his pop pop or going home with his mom. There was a time not so very long ago that he would have (without hesitation) said he wanted to come home with us but he (without hesitation) said, "I want to go home with mommy".
His answer took me by surprise and even caused a little twinge of something inside me. I thought about it off and on for the rest of the day. Why was it significant? Why did it make me sad? What did it represent? Shouldn't it have made me dance with joy?
After a long and sleepless night I woke up to these words in my devotional...
"Stop trying to work things out before their times have come. Accept the limitation of living one day at a time. When something comes to your attention, ask Me whether or not it is part of today's agenda. If it isn't, release it into My care and go on about today's duties. When you follow this practice, there will be a beautiful simplicity about your life; a time for everything, and everything in its time." Sarah Young, Jesus Calling
You see for so long I have been trying to work out this very situation before it's time. I have fretted and worried about it for years writing out various scenarios in my mind on a nearly daily basis. This morning I felt the Holy Spirit gently and reassuringly tell me, now is the time to let go.
"There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under heaven..." Ecclesiastes 3:1
Our house is our grandson's (and all of our grandchildren) safe haven and will always be his home away from home. But God in his infinite glory has raised up my daughter to provide him with his primary home and where ever she may move to physically, his home will always be with her.
Let the dancing for joy begin!
Note...for those of you who asked the bible I faith illustrate in is an old Note Maker's Bible Wide Margin Edition and I am not sure it is still available but here is one similar.