Some title, huh? You might want to grab a cup of coffee, this is a long one.
I think I've come to a point in my life where my world as a nester, my world as believer and my world as an artist have finally collided.
My natural instinct is to nest, that's for sure. I love taking care of people, almost too much. I can border on enabling those around me...(I am sure my family would laugh at the bordering part and say emphatically that I have gone over that line a time or two or twenty). I enjoy nothing more than to spend a day cocooned in my home planning and prepping, fiddling and organizing to my hearts content.
I am in love with Jesus Christ and owe everything good about my life to Him. Every talent I possess,
every joy that comes my way and every hard lesson with a silver lining, is from Him. My very existence now and forever is because He felt I was worthy to die for.
My life as an artist has always been there but it is the one that I have pushed to the side when time was tight. It was the one that I questioned the most when my self esteem took a beating. In fact, the very term artist is a hard one for me to use regarding myself.
Last year made me come to terms with so many things about life. What is important, what can be lost in a moment and what purpose God has for me here.
The time finally came to face the question as to whether I was all in for Him or whether I was going to continue settling for comfortable and familiar. What I realized is that comfortable and familiar can be taken aways from you at any time. If my life is going to stand for anything that brings glory to Him, I must be passionately all in. If I was not going to squander the talents He gave me, my worlds would have to collide.
Weighty stuff for sure. You would think I would be scared to step out and be all in, but the funny thing is, I have never felt more sure of anything in my life. I am not sure where I am going, but I know if I don't take the first step I'm not going anywhere and where is the passion and excitement in that.
If you made it this far, I have a feeling you are either searching too, or have been right where I am before.
I would love to hear how your worlds would collide if you let them? Or if they already have, how has that changed your life? I'll leave this post up over the weekend just in case you need to think about it and get back to me. Some questions take more pondering than others.